Nothing yet . . . but pain.

:( I'm still having a lot of pain.

The 21st of May is when this pain started. I was hoping it would be gone by now.

I did go back to my doctor and tell them I NEED to be referred to a specialist. Thankfully (if that applies here), I had a lot of redness and swelling that day. So she was able to see these changes. She said that along with the mass from the ultrasound, and it's time I see someone else.

Now I'm jumping through hoops with the insurance company to get the referral sent in and approved. Stupid government (I don't say that often!!!) has a program where my referral must be sent to the closest military hospital first. They can decide to take me on as a patient or refuse it and let the original referral go through. Ft. Hood is the closest, but it is still 45 minutes away. With 4 kids, I just can't see driving all that way for appts, especially if I have to have some sort of surgery and follow-up appts. It's ridiculous . . .

I had an appt with the specialist for Wednesday but had to cancel it due to these insurance issues. It's rescheduled for Thursday afternoon. Hoping and praying it goes through, and I can be seen tomorrow.

We are going out of town on Friday for a week . . . which could delay this process even longer and leave me in pain longer. :( Not good timing . . .

More Questions

Well, the radiology report says the mass (left breast) is "probably" benign. It is "probably" fibroadenoma. I don't like the term "probably" in my medical reports!!!

I was going to go in and ask for further testing. Then I woke up this morning in even more pain. So I made another follow-up appointment.

Today, my right breast is swollen and red . . . and extremely sore. My doctor took one look at the changes and said this plus the suspicious mass, and she is referring me to a specialist for a possible biopsy. Unfortunately, the doctor she wanted to send me to doesn't accept my insurance as primary insurance. So we have to find someone else. After talking to that office about what is going on, she said I need to be seen within the next week. Talk about scary . . . :(

I have a lot of thoughts and fears about what it could be, but I'm going to try to remain positive.

Right now, I can only nurse on the left side. The right is too painful. I imagine my nursing days are coming to an end because of all this. But I would rather be healthy and pain free than continue to nurse.

So again, I ask for prayers and positive thoughts. I hope to have better news in the future . . .

Not so good news

I have been having some pain in my breasts. I thought it was a blocked duct, mastitis, or thrush, but all seems to check clear. It's a little better now, but there is still a lot of pain that shouldn't be there. At first, I literally cried and screamed the entire time each of the boys nursed. :( I was miserable. It's still painful but not to that extent. This has been going on for about 2 weeks. 

I have gone to my doctor twice, and this last time, she said that if I'm in that much pain, we should talk pain meds. I told her no . . . if there is pain that shouldn't be there, figure out what it is and fix it instead of covering it up. :/ Her reply? Well what do you think it is? Uhhh . . . that's why I'm here . . .

Anyway, to appease me, she sent me in for blood work and an ultrasound. I'm still waiting on the official results and reports, but they did tell me (and I saw) that there is a mass in one breast. They took images and measurements. The radiologist said that I should get it rechecked in 6 months. I am not happy about that!! If it's a mass that shouldn't be there, I want it figured out sooner than later. (I sound like a broken record!!! Why do all these docs want to cover up things and take the "wait and see" approach?) They said it is not the source of the pains I'm having, but something to watch. They are sending the full report to my doctor. So I wait . . .

I am in need of prayers and good thoughts that it's nothing serious. :( I have let my mind wander to places I don't want to go . . . and it is a scary place to be.

One year old!!!

I can't believe it, but the boys are ONE year old!!!! :)

We had a little family party at my aunt's in Ft. Worth a couple weeks ago. It's always nice to have an excuse to get your family together!!

On their birthday, we had a little special day for them here at the house. They loved opening their gifts. Once Killian realized how to tear the wrapping paper off, he wouldn't stop!!! They got their big gift today . . . a Little Tikes bus slide activity center thing. It's so cute, and they LOVE it. They have figured out how to climb up and slide down all by themselves. Killian yells "weeeee" the whole time. They are so much fun!!!

So happy first birthday to the two most amazing little men in my life!!!!! :)

Boys check-ups

They are both doing great.

Sawyer is 22 lbs 8 ounces and 29 1/2 inches long.
Killian is 20 lbs 1 ounce and 29 inches long.

Sawyer's kidney ultrasound shows a little dilation still, but there is no more hydronephrosis. We get it rechecked in a year! :) Hooray for a good report!!!!