Every now and then, I wonder what could have been. Our first ultrasound with the boys, one of the sacs had a thin membrane and a blob with no heartbeat in it. They said it looked like I had identical twins and a third baby, but one identical twin didn't make it.
Sometimes I think about which boy would have had the identical twin. I wonder how different he would be than his brothers. Or how much fun it would be to have a set of identical twins plus one.
I know I am truly blessed to have these amazing miracles. I know that a triplet pregnancy would have had more risks and complications, but I often sit and think about the what if's . . . and get a little down. :(